Seesaw (unbalanced life)
I am always dissatisfied with my present situation, and I would like to be the ideal person, so my evaluation of myself wavers between the ‘limitations’ of reality and the ‘beauty’ of fantasy.
Chess and Go (uncertain blueprint of life)
In the face of an uncertain blueprint of life, it is said that life is more like Go than Chess, and many people live their lives like Chess. But I prefer my life to be a game of Go, in which I discover my own path as I move forward, rather than planning my own route by choosing my roles in advance.
Billiards (fulfilment of ultimate desires within finite rules)
Two people playing billiards is also a process of competition and gaming, they are in order to satisfy the desire to ‘win’, and in the limited table, props, They both try to satisfy their desire to ‘win’ within the limited table, props, and rules as much as possible. This is also a sign that I always want to win in my heart.
Tetris (unknown turn of life)
The aim of Tetris is to make the next randomly appearing square eliminate the accumulated squares, I compare the randomly appearing squares to a chance to make a change in a life that is at a low ebb.
Toggle (frenzied inner self)
While I'm slowly building up order in my inner self, a voice from the outside can knock me down in a flash.
Twitch (unshakable self-belief)
I always think that there are many paths in my life, and when I see many possibilities, and then have blind confidence, my heart will be full of desire for them, and I will be restless inside.
My inner world
I find that my emotions are a result of not being able to balance the real and imagined worlds within myself, which creates a sense of helplessness and fear. Toy play is like creating a fantasy world within the logic of real life, so I keep my toys in my inner world hut, where they are safe and it is an escape from the fear of the real world.