For quite some time I felt trapped, wandering in a consuming and overpowering shell until I discovered Mao’s concept that you ‘can only build a new world only if we destroy the old one’, sparking a real need for self-introspection. I am ready to exorcise my fears and strip off my deepest inhibitions. Fernando Pessoa, wrote in The Book of Disquiet, ‘To understand, I destroyed myself.’ This is what I intend to do with my FMP: taking apart this overbearing shell and let my truer self run free.